Wednesday, July 22, 2009


If there ever was a week to really make me look hard at what I believe. . . this has been it.
In the past week I have lost a dear friend, and gained a new nephew. I've considered my feelings on life and death very seriously. I've gone through stages of grief I didn't realize I had in me, based on my past experiences. I've experienced joy and love for a brand new person that is second only to holding my own son for the first time.

How is it possible?

How can a person feel such high highs and such low lows in such a short span of time? How can we, as mere mortals, wrap our brains and our hearts and our faith around all of this information at once? How is a person supposed to know how to react?

Should I be crying? Should I be laughing? Should I even be concerned about what's "appropriate" right now?

I must admit, I haven't known how to feel.

In the end, I've come to the following conclusion:

The Lord has a plan. It's not for me to know all of the details of how or why, but there IS a plan. All I can do is love and serve the people around me as much as my little human heart will allow, and trust that things will work out in the end.

It's all I can do.

He'll worry about the rest.


Buns said...

love you guys! Sorry it's been a rough week or two, but you're definitely right in everything you said there :) He'll figure it all out in the end. Just worry about which cupcakes you'll be making next.

The Cohen's said...

Mel, I think we are to praise him in the storms and in the celebrations. I can't imagine the mixed emotions you have, but I will be thinking and praying for you.
And God's plan is something we may never understand, but as long as we know that it is in HIS plan, it's all we can really grasp.

Melanee Raynes said...

I loved that...and I really needed that. Thanks. :)

Tausha and James Hansen said...

Very heartfelt and so true! I have often wondered this same thing. How can our Father in Heaven allow us to feel such intense love for our instense that it hurts. And then also allow us to feel such pain and emptiness. Of course we know the answer deep down but it is our mission in life to really believe the answer and trust the plan. Love u Melanie!

Kelsey K. Hartley said...

Faith has been on my mind lately too but for much different reasons. I wish I knew more about The Plan and could trust Him more but then it wouldn't be called Faith. I appreciate your shared thoughts and feelings. I hate separation.

*jess* said...

great post. thanks for the reminder. :)